Premier amour !

Ses yeux me manquent, son regard, sa bouche, son teint, son ange ... Son TOUT . Je sais pas quoi faire, parler avec lui ou rester seule dans ma tristesse? Quoi faire? J'ai commis beaucoup d'erreurs , je suis la fautive...Oui . Mais, comment il a resté tous ces mois sans me parler ou seulement m'envoyer un petit message pour savoir est-ce-que je me sens bien après lui ou non, il sait déjà que je sens la plus heureuse du monde auprès de lui.
Plusieurs sentiments, plusieurs mots pour décrire mon amour vers lui, un nom qui est collé dans ma mémoire, une personne qui a pris mon cœur, une lettre qui est commune dans nos prénoms, la lettre A.
En bref, ça fait 1 an et 9 mois que je t'aime, t'es la source de mon bonheur et parfois la source de mon malheur.
Enfin, J’espère que tu verras mes mots, mes sentiments, ce texte . Je t'aime

THE ONE ... the only one

when i'm looking to your eyes is like counting stars, i wish i could be a better me for you, you had stolen my heart but it's okay i don't want it back. writing your name on the mirror after my shower'n remembering every word that you said to me'n smiling !
I still remember the first day i met you, i'm in love with you more today than i was yesterday, i need you more that i need air, i love you more than i love myself. I still remember our first kiss, the moment when you kissed me 'n my heart start beating faster than it was and you touched it then i remember when you said to me : Don't worry honey i'll be always with you, and i still remember when you told me that your best music is Hush Hush by pussicat dolls .

P.S: I WILL LOVE YOU UNTIL INFINITY RUNS OUT 

Emotions.... :(

Congratulations...!! You've managed to make me feel like a worthless piece of shit again. would you like an award for that ? I feel so fucking stupid for still loving you ! you really hurt me. why am i so afraid to lose you when you are not even mine :3
I don't know if i still love you or not but guess what , every single night i think about you, everyday i see your account on facebook to know your news, i'm dreaming to see you, i miss you so much ! no one understands what's wrong with me and so i do ! when we broke up every day i make the same things : asking about your news, seeing your account, listening to our favourite music, remembering all the the good things that we did, the nights that we passed on skype, and all the shit that you've just lied to me !
Please don't be in love with someone else!..
you didn't broke my heart, you totaly destroyed it ! i'm jealous of people who get to see you everyday.
we used to talk everyday, now it's like we don't know each other anymore.
I always wonder what goes throught your head when you hear my name!! it was so real for me but clearly love is just a game for you.
The absence of you is killing me you are my one in 6 billion....:'(
And finally, you cannot see all my scars your love has caused

Let you go !

when i'm happy i can't stop talking but when i'm sad i don't say a word, i just keep my silence and go away, far away. Sometimes, i miss the days when the homework was just colouring, when my own dream is to see my mom the happiest women in the world, when my own hope is to growing up, when i was afraid from the darkness ... i really miss my innocent, my childhood, my smile when i was child!
I can't lie to myself, i passed with him the greatest days in my whole life, i loved him more than myself, but he always say that i'm the one who makes the problems ! okay, that's he's opinion, but he doesn't even loved me like i do, be jalous like me, be th one who says sorry, i always say sorry to him even when it's not my fault ! he makes always the bad girl ! i can't lie also   to myself nd say that he loved me because he doesn't ! he passed time with me ! he makes me just for fun and for his free time . Guess what ?  that's hurt me ! my heart just say enough ....is enough ! you make me the bad'n the uggliest  person in the world and you're just like an innocent ! you act like the innocent person who doesn't hurt people but you hurt me a lot!
take a few seconds and tell your self why she loved me ! i'll tell you why ! i loved you because only the good girls fall in love with bad boys and you're a bad boy ;)
I finally decide to let you go from my heart and my mind because you don't deserve to think about you for just a little while !

Make them wonder why you still smilling...!

Tell me the story of how the sun loved the moon so much, he died every night to let her breath.
I want this story so badly, the story that makes me feeling that i'm loved by the person who i love.
I'm not perfect, i'll annoy you, say stupid things and then take them back again. But you'll never find a girl that loves you more than me.
I wish my life was like a Nicholas Sparks book ! I just want to grab your hand and be like "You're mine ".I could spend hours looking at you and your smile.
I just want to say from the bottom of my heart that i'll kill you if i see you with any BITCH ! :) 
I lost you so much ... i can't lose you again too ! Nothing is like it was .

Romance is easy... love is not !

A true relashionship is when you can tell each other anything and everything ! No lies, no secrets.
I live, i love, i cry, i lose, i bleed, i scream ... I learn . I finally found LOVE on page 364 in the dictionnary and it means that love be respected by two not just by one and it doesn't hurt but YOU hurt me so i'm not in love.
No ones perfect until you fall in love with them ! I want you to just hold me and say to me that you still love me. You said you'll never leave me, you promise me that you'l never let me go but you did the opposite :-(
They ask me : Do you miss him . then i said : hell no ! but my heart say : Everyday ... Everyday !
So just take my hand, you know that i'll never leave your side ! I want to be yours now .. next week... years from now and forever !

I don't care anymore :)

I was there for you, remember that ;) will you miss me when i'm gone ? i went so do you have any thing to say it for me?  of course no ! can i tell you some shit ? you deserve a award for the best lie ;) all the shit that you said were just a big lie from you ! I don't care now ! I don't care about you !
Do what you want, say what you want to say, stay or leave, come or go... I don't give a fuck !
You said that i should move on, you don't want me anymore ! ok i'll show what i can do ;) I'm strong enough
Don't think that without you the world stops! you're definitly wrong honey ;) You were everything for me, you meant the world to me bt guess what you're nothing now  ! if you left me without a reason don't come back with an excuse :)
Yes, I've changed ! Pain does  that to people ! you hurt me enough ! I hate you
I choose to be happy ! i choose you but i was wrong ! I choose the wrong person to fall in love with :)
It's time to move on ! we should love, not fall in love because everything that falls gets broken.
Your words hurt me enough more than anything !
             
                                                                              Congratulations! You lost me :)